Day 78 – Putting On A Happy Face

“Why does Sea World have a seafood restaurant?? I’m halfway through my fish burger and I realize, Oh my God….I could be eating a slow learner.”

~ Lynda Montgomery

186.4 lbs.

This morning I woke up with an idea. Throughout the day it developed, while remaining, in my mind, a good idea… unlike some of the ideas that seem like a good one in the fog of waking but later I realize are just plain nuts (Really? We should send death row inmates into battle, instead of traumatizing our college age kids? Yeah, great plan. And I suppose the convicted drunk drivers could drive the tanks?)

So far I get a lot of emails from you, which is great. Especially the supportive ones; though I have to say the threats of violence against me are kinda fun, especially coming from the pro-ana crowd. I may be weak and atrophied from starvation, but so are you. Whoever threw the first punch would knock us both over from the breeze of the movement. So nyah.

Well done, those of you who write in. And bonus points to those who leave comments on these pages. But having listened to a bunch of Beatles, Diana Ross, etc. in my youth I’m always thinking of projects people can do together.

Dammit, now I have songs playing in my head. Hrmm… I’m going to go listen to some music, then I’ll be back to finish this article. Here: watch this while you wait. (more after the music vid)

Right – the idea…

As I’ve said in a few of these rants throughout my starvation project, one thing that’s driving me around the bend is the social isolation. If people in the early stages of anorexia or bulimia, or sinking into the depression of obesity, feel this way too wouldn’t it be great if we could all show our support, and wish them well, with a meme?

So the idea is this. Those of you who want to take part, snap a photo of yourself and send it in (click here for an example photo and full details). I’ll make a video with some of the information I’ve presented on this blog and, as part of the visuals, make a ‘flip book’ of all the different photos, so please try to make your portrait of similar proportions – it’ll make it easier for me to align things.

Other than this inspiration, I’ve been pretty glum today. 3 of my pets died overnight (fiddler crabs are fortunately easily disposed of without neighbours asking awkward questions, but still…), the dizzy spells are coming at the most inconvenient of moments, cash has been scarce, and – bah. Enough whining. 22 more days and I can get some proper calories in my system, go back to my day job, have a full belly and full bank account. And start replacing the muscle that has withered away.

Yup, just 22 more days and everything will be peachy.