The physical recovery is going well. Today I went for a 24 kilometer bike ride and came home sweaty but barely breathing heavy. My muscles are also re-adapting to weight training faster than I could have hoped. The mental recovery… well, that’s another story. I only underwent 100 days of starvation, but as I said one of the worst aspects of it wasn’t the lack of energy or the atrophying muscles, it was becoming a shut-in. But a funny thing [...]
One of the most difficult things for me to cope with during the 100 days of starvation was the social disconnect. Firends always wanted to go for dinner, drinks, etc. – none of which was practical for someone consuming less than 400 calories per day. People quitting smoking tend to avoid being around people who smoke, lest they be tempted. So how do you avoid being around people who eat? By avoiding being around people. In the army I learned [...]
“Why does Sea World have a seafood restaurant?? I’m halfway through my fish burger and I realize, Oh my God….I could be eating a slow learner.” ~ Lynda Montgomery 186.4 lbs. This morning I woke up with an idea. Throughout the day it developed, while remaining, in my mind, a good idea… unlike some of the ideas that seem like a good one in the fog of waking but later I realize are just plain nuts (Really? We should send [...]
“I want to break free from your lies You’re so self satisfied I don’t need you I want to break free God knows, God knows I want to break free” ~ Queen 189.7 lbs At the start of this project I had people from the pro-anorexia (aka “pro ana”) crowd saying this site was a joke, because I wouldn’t understand the emotional aspects of anorexia. Now more than two months into it I have others saying that I’m sounding more [...]
“Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open?” ~ Jalal al-Din Rumi (Persian poet) 219.2 lbs. Yesterday I wrote about withdrawing. I’m glad I got out to the gym today. It wasn’t an intense workout, but it got the blood flowing and more importantly moving, being active, and seeing the spring sunshine & everything turning green put me in good spirits & helped me pull my head out of my ass. Well, at least about [...]
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